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[personal profile] laruetheday 2025-02-13 05:14 am (UTC)(link)
"Yeah." It's so uncool of her, but she can't stop the smile that breaks out onto her face. Abby doesn't seem uncomfortable with this at all, or like she feels weird about what they did yesterday. All good signs, even if she does look half-asleep still.

"Did you, uh, sleep okay?" Stupid question. Not to mention kind of formal and awkwardly polite, for her.

Look, she isn't sure what to do in this situation, exactly. It's not like she can lean over and kiss Abby good morning. She can't just, like, assume. All the weeks of awkwardness and tension and sideways glances and finally they've done something about it, but they still haven't talked, they still don't know exactly where they stand.
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[personal profile] laruetheday 2025-02-13 09:05 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yeah," she says. "Much better than I have been."

Nothing was wrong with the apartment room. It just didn't feel right. She'd take forever to fall asleep, and wake up with a sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach only to find that just a few hours had passed and it was still dark outside. This was a thousand percent better.

She's up but doesn't really want to leave, not with Abby lying there smiling at her like that. Their legs touching. But her heart is starting to race already and if she stays here she might say the first thing that pops into her head, and who knows what weird shit that might be?

Okay. Okay okay okay. She needs a few minutes, not to escape but to clear her head, figure out what she's going to do about this.

Clarisse rises to a sitting position and rubs a hand across her face, wiping sleep from her eyes. The part of her that sucks at this kind of thing and doesn't know how to react to stress is just dying to say something stupid, but she manages to sound pretty normal, actually, when she speaks again.

"You hungry? I can get some breakfast and bring it back here." Not that the two of them couldn't both walk to the dining hall. But eating there would definitely fuck up the intimate conversational vibe that Clarisse is planning on so she hopes Abby just says okay and lets her go.
laruetheday: that would be an enthusiastic yes. (am i a morning person?)

[personal profile] laruetheday 2025-02-14 01:37 am (UTC)(link)
"You better be."

For just a second Clarisse stays where she is, watching Abby smile and feeling a mixture of giddy excitement and nervousness. Then she slides out of bed.

Her clothes—their clothes are strewn on the floor. Clarisse has to turn one leg of her pants rightside out before she pulls them on, in a move that reminds her of that morning in the training yard, when she'd gone back to the tent unbuttoned and even more of a mess than usual, her underwear clenched tight in one fist.

This isn't half as awkward as that, although she is aware that Abby must be watching her as she gets dressed, pulling her shirt over her head without bothering with her bra first. Her clothes are wrinkled from hours lying unfolded on the floor, and she runs her hands down the front of her shirt a couple times even though it doesn't help much.

Right, all her clean stuff is across the harbor. That's something she'll have to deal with at some point later today.

"Be back in ten. Don't fall back to sleep," she warns as she finishes pulling her boots on and goes to exit. It's not at all a serious threat, though. She knows Abby too well.
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[personal profile] laruetheday 2025-02-15 05:45 am (UTC)(link)
Clarisse returns balancing a tray with food and two mugs of steaming coffee. It's basically impossible to look cool balancing a tray of anything, but she's doing her best. She mostly picked things that wouldn't be gross if they got cold, but there's still a mix of things they both like—bacon and toasted bread with jam, some apple slices and honey.

She's not surprised to see that the bed's been made, or that Abby's dressed with her hair braided. It's exactly like any other morning, except for all the ways it isn't.

She sets the tray down on the table nearest Abby's bed, and then hesitates, not sure whether to sit down there or on her own bed. Even as she does it, she's aware that she's making it a bigger deal than it should be. She's flopped down on Abby's bed like she owned it dozens of times before this and never given it a second thought, but suddenly she's hyper aware of everything she's doing and how it might come across.

Well, Abby's bed is closer. Clarisse picks up her mug of coffee and sits on the end, holding it in both hands even though it's still a little too hot to drink.

"Hey," she says, feeling like an idiot. "I hope this is okay." Like Abby is going to get pissed at her for bringing the wrong food, or something, when she's seen her eat all this stuff on a regular basis. Stupid.
laruetheday: i can probably relate. (did something awkward happen?)

[personal profile] laruetheday 2025-02-17 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
Clarisse was definitely talking about the food, and for several moments afterward she's lost for words. Her ears get all hot and she takes a sip of the coffee, stalling, even though it's gonna burn her mouth.

"Yeah," she says when she feels like she can, "about that."

She puts her mug back down on the tray. She can't hold onto it and say this. She doesn't know what her hands are going to do.

"When you say happens again, do... you just want to be friends who hook up? Or—or like—" Fuck it, right? She's thinking about what she said to Jayce right after Ellie disappeared, about how she just keeps loving people anyway, even if it hurts her.

"I think about you all the time," Clarisse says in a rush. "When you didn't remember me I felt like I was going to throw up every day when I woke up and you weren't there. All I wanted to do was be with you. And I kept thinking that at least I didn't kiss you on Satinalia because if I'd done that it would have made everything even harder, but I don't think it really mattered that I didn't do it, because I still wished I had."

At that point she peters out and has to stop to breathe. This all sounded way better and more coherent in her head while she was walking back up here, for the record.
laruetheday: i'm gonna have to be a robber. (i'm never gonna be a cop.)

[personal profile] laruetheday 2025-02-17 04:18 am (UTC)(link)
Hearing Abby say this is a huge weight off her chest. Not just I really like you, even though it's mostly that, but a little bit I got in my head about it too. It makes Clarisse feel a little bit less dumb about how weird she's been making this, when the whole time she didn't have to be.

This time when she breathes in, it feels like she's actually filling her chest with air. She's still—nervous, a little, that butterflies in the stomach kind of feeling. But she's happy more than anything. Relieved. Excited. Watching Abby tuck an invisible piece of hair behind her ear makes it feel like something soft is blooming inside her chest.

Abby's still holding onto her coffee, so Clarisse doesn't so much take her hand as just place her own over top of it, letting her thumb curl gently around Abby's wrist. "I really like you too, Abs. I'm sorry," she says. "That I was so stupid after the first time."

Maybe she had a good enough reason to act a little stupid. Maybe. But even after that, she'd said they shouldn't have, that it was a mistake, and she'd made herself hold back instead of doing what she wanted. Wasting time, when they both know that it's so finite.
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[personal profile] laruetheday 2025-02-17 05:29 am (UTC)(link)
Clarisse is shaking her head, but she's smiling. She keeps holding onto Abby's wrist, enjoying the way it's warm against her palm. Right, Abby walked away from her first, but Clarisse had been planning her own escape too, and she'd been too relieved by the sudden aloneness to even think about being offended.

"Yeah, I know." She's thinking back to yesterday, how Abby had asked if they could talk and then kissed her instead. They might have had this conversation last night instead, then, if Abby had hesitated a little more. But Clarisse kind of prefers it this way, talking now that the immediate emotional reaction of being forgotten and then remembered again has had time to settle.

"So does this mean," she says, trailing off, a little embarrassed about what she's asking. "Are we..." Dating seems sort of dumb to say, because isn't that what you do to get to know somebody? She already knows Abby. Official seems equally stupid, like they're going to have to go announce their intentions publicly or something.

"Together," she settles on, waving her free hand in a very it's whatever! who cares! way even though it's not whatever and she cares a lot.
laruetheday: to be fair, i did. (imagine that.)

[personal profile] laruetheday 2025-02-17 11:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Clarisse can't stop grinning. "Cool," she agrees, and gives Abby's wrist a little squeeze before releasing it.

They're both still a little red in the face, self-conscious about their own happiness, but it feels like her stomach untied all its knots as soon as Abby said yeah, and she relaxes into the way she's sitting on the bed, letting her leg knock against Abby's without a second thought. This is good. It feels right. She's really happy.

And now that she's not on the verge of some kind of attack, Clarisse is hungry, too. She reaches for a slice of toast and lifts it to her mouth, but a thought occurs to her before she takes a bite. "Does this mean I get to take you out?"

Okay, now toast.
laruetheday: i just tell them where we're going. (i don't ask people out.)

[personal profile] laruetheday 2025-02-18 11:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Good. She wants to do that. And she's not going to subject Abby to flying more than she has to, but she knows some cool places. Now that they have the eluvians, they don't even have to wait for Kirkwall winter to ease up.

Clarisse has just bitten off approximately half of the piece of toast in her hand, but she snorts and nudges Abby with her elbow, pleased. It feels so good to have Abby tease her again, and to shove her in response, without any lingering awkwardness. Just like how it used to be between them, only now there are some extra bonuses.

"Only on days you deserve it." It's not, on the surface, any different from something she might have said to Abby a few months ago, or last year even. But now there's a definite shift in the tone. Sure, as far as flirting goes it's not her best work, but it's been a while.