"I dunno," she says, and then it comes out of her restlessly. "We were high." Not quite looking up at her, "And I — said all that stupid stuff to you." She can't entirely remember if she was being especially pushy in bringing up thinking about other rifters, how did they even get onto that? Did it come up out of the blue?

They were laughing about it. At least she knows she asked Clarisse, sitting so close she could smell the smoke on her breath, if she wanted to kiss her.

I got you.

It's not like she thinks that it wasn't consensual cuz it obviously was, but the circumstances before it happen have twisted up on it, sunk into the whole thing and now she's overthinking. You need to get laid, Abs, Manny used to say to her whenever he wanted to piss her off — I did, pendejo she wants to say back. And I'm still stressed out, so now what!

She runs her hand over her face, sighs. Shrugs. "It's been bothering me."