Yeah, now that she's seeing the look on Abby's face, she's wondering if she should have just kept her mouth shut. Now, that is. Because talking to Cosima did help and she wouldn't undo that.

"It... yeah."

She can't pull words out of the air, she's already said this much, so she just keeps going. "I just had, like, all these mixed up feelings about stuff with Ellie, and I was kind of. Putting them on what happened and feeling shitty about it, and that's why everything was so weird with us, after. But when I talked to her she made me realize I didn't have to do that. They were like... separate things."

She holds her two palms facing each other and then spreads them apart by a few inches. See, separate.