Now that she's made the decision to stay (to stay until Blunder can head back out), she's not sure what to do. She sinks back to a sitting position and pushes the bag back against the side of the tent, and once that's done and there's nothing to busy herself with, she's lost.
It feels like she can't look at Abby. Somehow it's worse because Abby isn't being mean now, isn't lashing out the way Clarisse would have if this had happened with their positions in reverse. Abby's going to wait with her anyway, like Clarisse didn't just say something horrible and then come within seconds of fighting her.
She stares at her lap instead, and messes with the fabric of her shirt, tugging at it even though there's nothing wrong with it. She still feels sick with anxiety, with all that energy and nowhere to put it, and she knows what she should say, but the longer she doesn't say it the harder it gets to say anything at all.
Finally, still not looking up, she manages. "I'm sorry I said that to you. I know it's not true."
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Now that she's made the decision to stay (to stay until Blunder can head back out), she's not sure what to do. She sinks back to a sitting position and pushes the bag back against the side of the tent, and once that's done and there's nothing to busy herself with, she's lost.
It feels like she can't look at Abby. Somehow it's worse because Abby isn't being mean now, isn't lashing out the way Clarisse would have if this had happened with their positions in reverse. Abby's going to wait with her anyway, like Clarisse didn't just say something horrible and then come within seconds of fighting her.
She stares at her lap instead, and messes with the fabric of her shirt, tugging at it even though there's nothing wrong with it. She still feels sick with anxiety, with all that energy and nowhere to put it, and she knows what she should say, but the longer she doesn't say it the harder it gets to say anything at all.
Finally, still not looking up, she manages. "I'm sorry I said that to you. I know it's not true."