"Why?"

It... sounds completely fucking bizarre coming out of Ellie's mouth. She doesn't know what Clarisse could have done to deserve hearing about the various ways in which all of her friends were hunted down and murdered. Part of her gets that Ellie is self-flagellating (she has done this before too); Clarisse is close enough to the both of them now that they can try and scare her with the terrible details just to see if she runs.

But Abby's chest feels tight. She says shortly, "Don't talk about them like that."

Let me tell you all the terrible things I did and you can make a judgement call. Never mind all the actual people who died to exist as a stand-in for some kind of relationship test. People that Abby loved, and misses more than anything. "I've already told her a few things about Manny anyway, I'll tell her that part."

Adding fuck you isn't necessary when it's already there in her tone.

This conversation was never gonna be easy, no matter how much they understand each other.